"I'm waiting for you / In the gloom and the blazing (...) / Come down on the road"

 Nights full of dreams. And when awake, songs come to me.

Strange season, summer, in the years 2010s.
Paris is lovely, Italy is radiant, many European cities are calmer, more enjoyable... And yet, in the background remain the political turmoil and the wars we started and try to mention less and less.

We have to enjoy, I mean, life is made for joy, for presence, for compassion and understanding. But mankind invented such a level of violence... it's puzzling.

One little person in the middle of the storm does feel helpless. And from time to time, one senses something is going to happen. Such a level of hatred has been reached here in Europe. Shall we leave?

This morning early, I woke up with the sound of this song.
It reminds me of my journey through Mexico in September 2012, almost four years ago. Mexico is such a beautiful country, so powerful and full of depth. I absolutely adored every place I went in, every person I met. I remember the colours of the house I stayed in for a few days in Oaxaca, the kindness of the inhabitants, the feeling of being so welcome. I remember the sacred pyramids of Oaxaca in the middle of the green grass and through the bluest sky...

Mexico has such beauty, architectural beauties rivaling with European ones. It also has a lot of heart and energy and love, but also a cloud of so much past sufferance... like some places in Africa.

The sound of this song. The lyrics of this song... Coming back today.

Lhasa de Sela - 'My Name'

Why don't you ask me

How long I've been waiting

Set down on the road

With the gunshots exploding

I'm waiting for you

In the gloom and the blazing

I'm waiting for you

I sing like a slave

I know I should know better

I've learned all my lessons

Right down to the letter

And still I go on like this

Year after year

Waiting for miracles

And shaking with fear

Why don't you answer

Why don't you come save me

Show me how to use

All these things that you gave me

Turn me inside out

So my bones can save me

Turn me inside out

You've come this close

You can come even closer

The gunshots get louder

And the world spins faster

And things just get further

And further apart

The head from the hands

And the hands from the heart

One thing that's true

Is the way that I love him

The earth down below

And the sky up above him

And still I go on like this

Day after day

Still I go on like this

Now I've said this

I already feel stronger

I can't keep waiting for you

Any longer

I need you now not someday

When I'm ready

Come down on the road

Come down on the road

My name, my name

Nothing is, nothing is the same

And I won't go back the way I came

My name, my name

Nothing is the same

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